.Beautiful Disaster.

I thought i had recovered already from last week's flu. For about 2 days i felt better only to be struck by a really nasty cough n fever this week. I feel so lethargic all i could do yesterday was sleep n sleep n sleep.... Can't wait to get better so that i can go cycling at east coast or go swimming again!

The all important letter frm NUS.... still hasn't arrived. So I've accepted SMU's offer. Will have to pay $300 deposit, so i'll have to inform my parents tt SMU is where i'll be going. Have to pay up within 7 days...

I really never expected i'l be entering SMU. I only sent in the application at e very last min. And all along it has always been either NUS or NTU to me... I hope i like it there. I don't know anyone yet who's also goin to SMU. I guess i'm going to be quite lonely over there... I don't know why but i have tt feelin. Cos everyone i know is either goin to ntu or overseas... And SMU has a really small population. It has about e same number of students as in NUS arts faculty. *Sigh*

But i guess i'd like its teachin approach n e diff campus life. I think it suits me more. I hope i like my course n my mates(only 50 of us)n most importantly e lecturers... And i know in SMU its compulsory to speak up in class...lolz i'm getting cold feet already. I'm not sure whether i'd be comfortable. Besides i keep on saying e wrong things... Plus i'm image consious... I'm afraid i'l sound dumb.*Sigh*

Nways today was a really super hot day. I went to citylink guardian to do a mock-up video shoot(of promoting loreal wrinkle decrease). Was called up by ex-boss Cyril to help e company do it for their internal circulation, as a kind of teaching device thingy. But today my voice was freakin hoarse!!!It sounded really husky but not in a sexy way :( I came 30 mins late (oops!) and they wrapped up really fast. Only took 2 takes with my voice sounding really terrible. I didn't talk much to both of those woman frm Dermopower(my ex company) cos of my voice... Guess they thought i was kinda anti-social.

I hope i get better tomorrow to go out shopping. And i hope i'd be able to accept SMU as my new school. Well i have to love my school this time, don't wanna repeat wat i did for jjc. Hating my school's only gonna make my life miserable. *Sigh*

I have a heavy heart tonight.

--*BiAnCa*--