.Beautiful Disaster.

NUS hasn't sent me a letter yet... I'm not sure why. I reasoned this year's batch of a'level students did damn well, at least in terms of quality grades. I'm feeling really bitter cos i didn't study hard and i knew if only i'd put in effort to study, esp for maths, things would definitely be much easier. I know its no use thinking about all these regrets now but i can't help but feel frustrated. *Sigh*...

The deadline for SMU's offer ends this THURSDAY. Most likely i'll be accepting it. I can't risk waiting for NUS to come knocking. Don't even know why they r so fu**in slow...*SIGH*
Never have i imagined it would be this hard for me to get a place in the local university. Guess i really screwed up ever since i entered JC. Those whirlwind of events...me leaving aj... enterin jj and losing my focus... Why, it was as if my grades just went downhill frm then on. I noe its bad to dwell on the past... but its hard to think about the future...I'm not even sure what i want to be in life. Right now i have only this few options:

In no particular order:

1. A journalist. (this has been the profession i've been aiming for actually. But i blew my chances of ever entering mass comm. Only NUS arts fac might offer an alternative route...but u noe...)

2. A businesswoman? (I'm not really sure if i'd like office politics n the dredgery monotonous life of a business person.U'd have to be cunning to survive n stay ahead of the pack. Its likely to change e person i am...)

3. A teacher (Worse comes to worse, this would be my back-up plan... But i do love teaching young people. I think it would be fulfilling n challenging. Still considering this one...)

4. Economic Analyst? Banker? Psychologist? Director? (Just some of the few i haven't really given much consideration)

5. Entrepreunuer! (Assuming i have the funds of course, i'd set up some kind of business i'm interested in. its cool being ur own boss.)

Sigh... Life is just one big fat headache. I'm in need of some kind of "panadol". Don't think i might meet any in smu though...

Painfully urs,
--*BiAnCa*--