.Beautiful Disaster.

Judging from all those digital pics i've taken since the fabulous piece of technology hit the market (digital camara), i've come to a sinking realisation that i look so....OLD?

No. Like thats not really the word. I look... GROWN-UP.
Yes. Grown-up.
I've realised i have a really mature looking face n tt i probably look a possible 25... I think its probably my longish looking little face, and my so really long curly hair.
Now i think Yinghua's right, curly hair does give a very mature look. Its nice cos its very feminine, wild n sexy. But all those give u an appearance tt's 3-5 yrs older than u really are.

And i so so hate my eye-bags....n my fine eye wrinkles thats gettin more obvious day by day....
ARRGH!! I'm not even 20 yet!

At this rate i'd probably have to go for skin lift by e time i'm 27. Botox injections by the time i'm 35 n god knows what else...Stock up on miricle creams n face masks. (I hope they work better in 10 yrs time...)

And another thing happened today...
I've finally received the letter i've so desperately yearned for. Yes! the brown package tt is so NUS has found its way to my mail-box. At long last!
I opened it up in front of the living room, n loads of stuff just dropped out. There's stuff abt accomodation, matriculation card etc etc. I mean SMU's letter of offer was just a single-paged announcement! I was like WOW talk abt which is a more established uni? But of course i think u wait long for good things. I didn't even had to read thru all of those nus stuff....

I already knew i wanted to go there.

I knew tat ever since i was in SEC 1 in my green CCKSS uniform when i vowed to study real hard, go to a good jc n enter NUS.

That was e ultimate goal anyway.

But things just had to be tough for me.
Like how i went to a not so fantastic JC n ended up with not so fantastic A'level results n having to accept SMU's offer first n pay 300 F****kin dollers to confirm a place JUST IN CASE...i didn't land up in Ultimate Destination of my goal.

Told Dad abt it. Expected him to flare up. And he DID. But not at me.Like he understood my situation. He went starking mad at e university admission system. Demanded i write a letter to Straits Times Forum to demand a refund if possible!

I just went WTF?!!!
Well i am angry at e way they handled admissions this yr. But no way am i going to kick up a storm n throw myself into the media limelight. Or u know, make a mountain out of a 'molehill'.
So i debated with him for abt an hour. Almost gave in to fatigue. Its so exhausting having to reason with a parent who always thinks he's right. Well he does have his valid points but he needs to see the different perspectives...
And so anywayz he steamed down after a while n made the $500 confirmation deposit to NUS via internet banking procedure.

WHEW.......

Tomorrow i'd have to attempt to call SMU and inform them i'm giving up my place. They've earned from me...*bitter taste in my mouth now*. So i bet their new campus will be daamn nice. But the main reason of informin them is to basically not deprive another worthy student of the place. I know how frustratin it is to wait for letters of offers. Some students haven't received anything yet...Its not fair i've booked 2.

But what e hell, despite everything i'm happy! Finally i'm going to my first choice university. I think i'd enjoy life there... Can't wait!!! :)

Hopefully by next week everything will be settled. Then i'd start shopping for clothes n stationaries. Great Singapore Sale is gonna help a whole lot! *BEAMS*

--*BiAnCa*--