.Beautiful Disaster.

I thought i'm gonna have lots to say...now i'm here i can't even start...

Had a whirlwind weekend, the holidays are proving great so far... 3 more weeks left, before its all over, and the next sem kicks in.

Got hit by a sudden bout of depression last night. Just felt extremely lonely and down in the dumps. Trust the x'mas season to always give u a slightly melancholic feeling, aside from the usual merriment.

Jokingly told Denise i want to walk down Orchard Road alone this Christmas Eve...On second thoughts, i don't see how it could even happen. I'd probably be stuck at home havin Christmas Eve dinner with my family. Perhaps thats better... Then i wouldn't hafta stand brushing through the seemingly endless throng of couples passing by me, and be enmeshed in that complex network of connected limbs, feeling like the most pathetic thing on earth.

Alright i don't even know why i'm getting despondent over this. To think i've once prided myself as a love sadist. Not so right now i think...*smilez sadly*

I'm blabbering, ignore me.

Have yourself a Merry little Christmas dear friends.

And do plan parties, and include me. I miss everyone loads *hugz*

Lovingly yours,
--*BiAnCa*--