.Beautiful Disaster.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind.


I'm dismayed & feeling extremely betrayed
Was it that hard for you to keep it to yourself?
But nope u chose to be gossipy, hurtful, and conveniently created hostility between the 2 of us...
Thanks a lot.
I'm kinda regretting even liking you...and so much for confiding.
I'l probably never trust you again :(

Sigh...i feel sooo upset. and i can't help it but i'm feeling cynical about human nature all over again. No one's perfect, and i cannot hope & imagine everyone to be.

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Crashed the film & history lecture today to watch Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind. Such a thought-provoking & poignant show. If you were given a chance to erase someone or something completely from your memory forever, would you choose to?

Most people who cruised through their lives comfortable n relatively worryfree might say no. Though i think those are the blessed minority of the lot. Say you were an adult carrying the brunt of your traumatic childhood past, or a widowed women who lost her husband, or just an average person who's had ur heart broken by a relationship that didn't go the way it should have...would u choose to erase completely everything that is assoicated with that person(good n bad) and pretend the person never existed/the events never happened? I guess some would choose to forget every unhappiness they have ever encountered, choose to forget all relations gone sour. What is important is to move on with life, and concentrate on the positive experiences as opposed to the negative ones. Isn't that not?

But the lecturer said that human beings thrive on both the good and the bad experiences. Life is never a bed of roses, yet the bad memories keeps us human. They makes us appreciative of good times, and teach us valuable lessons. A heart that has never known pain can never know true pleasure. So his point was that we shouldn't choose to escape, to hide or to totally forget. We should in fact remember even bad memories for the quality of that experience. Never ever just choose to dwell in the eternal sunshine of a spotless mind.

But i wondered how true this could be. Everyone tries to attempt some sort of forgetting from bad experiences. How then does a mother who had a diificult first labour ever decide to give birth again? How do people fall in love all over again with a totally different person, and rebounce from a failed romance as if it never affected them? Doesn't everyone 'forgets' to a certain extent? Doesn't everyone sift out the bad n choose to selectively concentrate on the good memories?

Time heals all wounds...does it or does it not?

Or perhaps time lessens the pain, but it never ultimately disppears...

I'd never choose to erase anything i've ever experienced, even if some of my memories were sucky ones. But i'd never allow myself to dwell in the bad memories permenently either. I'd always try to move on, no matter how difficult the process, and i'll never completely filter away bad memories . I'l let them linger. Just linger. But they will never consume me.



Alexander Pope (1688-1744)
---Eloisa to Abelard


"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd; "

god bless

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