.Beautiful Disaster.

Its weird how at certain times i still think of you. And you.
Like seriously how could that be?
I guess i just miss the presence, the company and perhaps the bantering
Nowadays i hardly get a buddy that comes by
And offers free rides, piggybacks and good advice over coffee
You are missed. Never forgotten.
Nevertheless thanks for putting things in a much brighter prespective
Thanks for those moments, both good and bad,
They taught me valuable lessons. Really did.

I was just telling Blee over msn how weird i found myself 'crush-less'
I have no serious eye-candy anymore.
There used to be someone, but he's a no longer
And then i realised i prob have a few here and there,
but they are pretty forgettable creatures of the opposite gender.
Friends have been asking whether i've anyone particular in mind
I realised there's no one in fact.
Is that a worrying state?
Maybe i'm becoming comfortable being too much on my own
Right now i feel like a free spirit. I'm my own soul and lover
Do they have a label for that? I guess i'm bordering on severe narcissism.

So my beastie friend thinks i have high expectations. Hmm perhaps..
But i like to think of it as having my own benchmarks drawn in priorities
Then in realistic sitiations i give tolerable lee-ways. *smirks*
I know i can't hanker realistically over Calvin Klein modellish type dudes
But neither do i think i can be just blissfully happy settling over any passable material
I guess i'm a new age girl thats too comfortable being by myself, it doesn't matter no one quite right comes along anymore.
With that thinking i'm effectively closing doors, my mom says
But i tell her few bother knocking on them anyway. =D

So in a nutshell wat do i look for?
I think broadly speaking, 4 things matter (covertly speaking)
Intelligence, Confidence, Looks and a Good Personality
Pretty much in that order of importance. I'm not expecting a 10 in everything, though if someone meets that criteria he's my Nirvana.
But having any or a combination of these 4 pretty much attracts me~=)
I know some people are prob thinking those are demanding requirements..
But like i said he doesn't have to score great in everything
Having an 8 in intelligence pretty much negates the low score in the looks dpt for instance.

So would one consider that being of high expectations?
Perhaps.
I'm fine wit that really.

For now, God fills me. Studies occupy me.
And every other thing in my life more or less makes me contented.
I'm at ease being just one. -I'm another amoeba yuck!-

So peace. =)