.Beautiful Disaster.

Its totally unbelievable and incomprehensible.
I knew it was gonna get bad, i just didn't know it was gonna be this BAD.
I'm at the brink of giving up, if not for the work that has already been done,
the efforts that have already been channelled and sacrificed,
I would have called it quits once n for all.

Why do i bother when no one else does?
Why do i care when no one else gives a damn?
Why can't i just take the route of indifference, just like everyone else?

Yet despite all, i'm hanging on one thin strand of sanity
One thin strand of shaking patience
Not for you, or you or you,
But for myself, for the ones we ought to serve, for the ones we answer to

Sometimes i keep my cool too much,
Yet inside my spirit lashes out
Anger brews, unhappiness breds
I learn to contain the devil,
Because i believe negativity will not help anyone
Is never a solution, is never even a last resort

Perhaps we can never knock any sense to you
Because you have already conceded defeat
And you have already surrendered
You have the end in mind, while eveyrone else has the journey in theirs
I'm beyond appalled, beyond disgusted
And i'm barely hanging on

Its disappointing seeing this side of you,
But my soft heart still cares,
And if i didn;t care, i would have left u to perish.