.Beautiful Disaster.

I'm alive.
Week 3 of the semester and I've settled into a comfortable pace
Still very much the slacker, I'm really taking things slow
Not that my CAP could probably raise into the 4.0s anyway
Ha! I feel so unproductively ambitious-less

The home-front's getting back to normal
And my elder bro came home today for a lil while
Seemed to have matured a lil too..
I guess leaving home was a good thing after all
He needed the exposure and the reality-check
To go out there and explore his own niche
Without my dad wet-blanketing his dreams
Tearing his self-esteem down
And dictating his future for him

I wonder if I'd have to do the same thing for myself one day too.

And sometimes I wonder how amazingly transient relationships can be
You can know him for 6 mths,
and then 6 weeks later its as if he never existed
Seems like we shut each other off one another's life
All the better perhaps,
Since there was nuthing fore-seeable to this relationship
We're too different.
I'm too practical, he's too easy-go-lucky
When he sees an opportunity, i think of the consequence
I still miss him though, in this dreary sad world
When few can make your heart smile
You feel u've lost someone precious.

Friendships are transient too.
Why are social structures more enduring than human relationships?
Why is time so hard to find?
Why is initaitive long dead?

I'd pass on an article, a reading, ANY-DAY
Just to afford a ktv session, a movie, a dinner, a lunch date.
Because friends are worth so much more than books and grades.

So anyone reading this!! *hint hint*
Lets make the unfree days free for friends.